Tuesday, February 2, 2010


Faith is the firm belief in something for which there is no proof.

In my religion through the years, I had been taught that this life is not the end. There is a life beyond this. In fact, I believe that my husband and I who were “sealed” in our religion, by so doing, are bound together not “until death do us part” but for the eternities. When he was dying I never considered that I would not see him again, I had faith that I would.

After my husband’s death I can remember laying in bed one morning… just processing everything that was happening. And I felt his arms around me. Holding me tight. Not as a memory, but as a real feeling in that moment. The immediate months after his death I came to find he was around a lot. Holding me up. Keeping me from falling off the edge. In those months, faith was no more. I had proof. I KNEW that this life was not the end – because I felt his presence so strongly, so real. I knew. I didn’t have to “believe” or have “faith” any more. I knew.


  1. Yes. It really is. If you have seen the movie P.S. I Love you... there is a moment in the movie after he dies and she feels him holding her. That is so real. I don't think you understand that unless you have been there.

  2. I too have witnessed his presence next to you in church-for if we are aware that the veil is thin then those we love,we realize that they are not far from us.

  3. I have not felt him yet...at least I am not sure if what I see or feel are really signs...I am just too confused.

  4. Mariajaan... be still. Open your head and your heart to his comfort. You will feel it... I promise. I don't think it comes always, but it comes in tender moments, it comes.