tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2959409972754524769.post1551425482418224446..comments2023-07-17T06:25:57.395-04:00Comments on Diary of a Widow: DOES IT EVER GET EASIER?K.J.http://www.blogger.com/profile/04540231078646420326noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2959409972754524769.post-61968288322172258842011-10-10T12:30:11.257-04:002011-10-10T12:30:11.257-04:00Take this advice Mariajaan... take the embers from...Take this advice Mariajaan... take the embers from your life with him and leave the ashes. I have remarried and I am desperate to remember to never be ungrateful for my husband.. but guess what? Life is real. I am imperfect and even given all the perspective that my widowhood taught me, I am still a pain in the neck. But... my first husband knew I loved him.. I know he did. I have to believe he did. I could have gone crazy with wonder. Come what may and find a way to love it. Make a list of your embers.. the good things that happened. Leave the ashes. Feel his love for you.<br /><br />Does it get easier? You become more emotionally able to handle the loneliness. And the loneliness exaggerates the pain of the loss. But really... it wasn't until I had someone else in my life completely that I no longer felt the pain. For me... that was years later (6.5).<br /><br />You will get stronger. Every day. You may not feel it, but trust me, it is happening. Just keep getting up and keep going and your emotional muscles will grow. Feel his love for you. Accept the love from others around you. You need that love.K.J.https://www.blogger.com/profile/04540231078646420326noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2959409972754524769.post-27075974374881647592011-08-26T08:01:42.680-04:002011-08-26T08:01:42.680-04:00It has been 21 days for me now. I feel 21 times mo...It has been 21 days for me now. I feel 21 times more lonely and sad. I also feel an unbearable guilt. I am afraid he was not very happy and although his was a death resulting from illness I believe being tired about his life could have contributed...I will NEVER KNOW! I love him. I desperately look for signs.Mariajaanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00922888192047147894noreply@blogger.com